38: Unknown

If 2020 taught us anything, it taught us that most of life is outside of our control. There are so many unknowns in life. And while I love a plan and a schedule and an idea of what is coming next, I also know that I have to roll with whatever life gives me.

I had a flight credit from my cancelled Florida trip last year, so I came down to visit my family for a long weekend. I know that is a privilege that not everyone has, and I’m not certain how to navigate that conversation.

Florida is a little different for everyone. My family and I did go out for dinner, but the mask rules are very similar as Minnesota. My mom and I walk on the beach in the morning, but its more spread out than walking around Lake of the Isles.

I don’t know what this summer will bring, I have an idea of the weddings I’m invited to, but how things will change in the next few months is a mystery.

While this blog is called “looking forward” I’m fairly regularly thinking about the past, and what I should have done, or could have done, or how things would be different if I had made another choice.

So I don’t have much to say this week, other than to acknowledge that most things are outside of my control, and I’m thankful for the time with family.

Do you think you know what the future holds for you? How do you deal with the unknown?

P.S. I apparently I also used the word “unknown” for week 48, so clearly it is a topic still on my mind.



  1. That is great that you were able to get down to FL to spend some time with your family! I am sure the change of scenery and warm weather are doing wonders for your mood.

    I am not great at handling the unknown. I have a harder time with this when I really want something and am not sure if I will get it. Like when we were trying for a 2nd child and had trouble getting pregnant. I do better with the unknown when I feel good about where I am at in life, though.

  2. I’m so glad you got the chance to travel and see family. I hope you enjoyed the sunshine! I will be seeing family – finally! – at the end of May. I’m already looking forward to it, although it’s also a bit anxiety-producing. The unknown always does that to me… and it’s a bit worse since COVID-19 started. I’ve really settled into a routine at home, like many people, and know that I will have to change that (again!) when things shift with work, etc.

    I also think this past year has spurred all of us to reflect more on what was, and what we want to bring forward, which feeds into those feelings of uncertainty and anxiety. We know what was… we know what is… we know how different they are. So what does that mean for what will be??? (And if I had the answer to that…. :>)

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